It was not a good time for me. I saw people in the shadows that I did not want to see. Creep round the edges, keep off the ledges.
I walked along the coast, sleeping on the beach in small seaside towns. I felt that two big things in my life, Monika and Hank, had been replaced with two chocolate cupcakes, everything was dark chocolate.
I sat on the sea wall and watched the colourful fishing boats, the seagulls screeched, the sun shone, but everything was dark chocolate.
I needed a change. I needed... I...
Why was I just thinking about myself?
I got an offer of a job in Germany.